A Fresh New Journey

Assalamualaikum peeps :)

hey it's almost july and i haven't updated my blog in quite a longggg time. Being a pasum student is not an easy thing for me! all those tutorials lectures labs and assignments, plus studying, ko-k and all whatnots.

hey people i'm still alive.

It's hard to catch up with studies.

But i've my awesome roommates and they're the love of my life ^^

(this is just an appreciation post)

YAYA ONNA AND HAZI

I LOVE YOU ALLS <3

this is what i call 'fate'. You girls are da-bombs!

And yeah i'm so grateful to be in pasum, alhamdulillah Allah showed me the right path. Who cares about jpa-mara anyways :p

Asasi Sains Hayat 15/16 PASUM, My Next Step????

Assalamualaikum wbt, to anyone yang tengah baca blog post ni.

Alhamdulillah, masa isi UPU hari tu Nadia dapat first choice, UM asasi sains hayat. But seriously i'm still crestfallen T-T bukannya tak bersyukur tapi asasi sains hayat UM is not my first choice in life. Nadia harap sangat sangat sangat dapat JPA-MARA scholarship untuk perubatan and specifically Ireland. Rasanya dah boleh tukar dah header dekat atas yang ada Ireland tu kan? hahahaha. Sedih tu memang sedih, tapj sampai bila kau nak continue on sedih kan nadia? Allah SWT dah tentukan jalan yang terbaik buat kau. Kau sebagai hamba perlu ikut je jalan tu, walaupun kau rasa tu bukanlah jalan yang terbaik buat kau, percayalah Allah Azza Wa Jalla ada simpan sesuatu yang lebih baik buat hambanya.

OK sambung with PASUM.

Tak tahu nak sedih ke excited. Excited kot. Sekarang ni tengah prepare barang barang. (eceh macam nak masuk asrama balik kan? :p) yeay dah la UM dekat dengan Midvalley xD memang boleh lepak situ je lepas kelas hehehee xD lagilah, 5 minit je daripada rumah. Memang hari hari boleh jenguk umi/ayah kat rumah xD tinggal lagi 2 minggu, tapi malas jugaklah nak prepare sebenarnya..... kalau dapat JPA-MARA tu mesti barang dah siap prepare T^T (sorry tak habis lagi cakap pasal JPA-MARA)

Nadia actually taknak taknak taknak dan taknak course lain selain medic. Semalam dapat tawaran interview for Petronas Education Sponsorship, course petroleum engineering, (overseas), tapi Nadia tak attend interview tu. Ingat nak share experiences kat sini tapi sorry guys, Nadia malas nak pergi. Kalaulah dapat pun scholarship tu even luar negara, memang nadia akan tolak. Seronoknya if i can give this interview offer to anyone else yang memang betul betul nak ~(;_;~) *for example my bb, lacking in 1 more A+ than his dream....* hurm.... bukan semua yang kita nak Allah beri, kan? percayalah ni jalan yang terbaik buat diri kau Nadia :') (tengah emo)

Orang cakap UM takde curfew, ya Allah bebasnya!! tapi tu bukan ticket untuk kau have fun nadia. bukan. bukan bukan. Ingat tujuan asal kau. BELAJAR. gembirakan umi/ayah dengan result kau. dapatkan CGPA 4.00 untuk both semester. Kau boleh Nadia, yakin dengan diri kau sendiri >.< tebus balik 9A+ yang kau tak dapat tu. Tebus balik lagi 2A+ yang kau tercicir masa jawab SPM tu. Kau still sedih sebab dapat 7A+ je kan Nadia? Aku tau aku masih sedih. So this is my golden opportunity to study even harder and dapat 4* :D insyaAllah.

Setiap perkara yang Allah SWT tetapkan untuk kau sejak kau bayi lagi, semua ada hikmahnya tersendiri. Dan insyaAllah, aku akan mencari hikmah tu sendiri, bakal bergelar Dr. Nadia suatu hari nanti, insyaAllah.

Kalau nak fly tu, side dishes dia je. The main thing is that course. Medic.

InsyaAllah, inilah jalan yang terbaik buat diriku :-)

thank you to my other half for giving me the support all this while, tolong prepare for interview jpa-mara tu sampai lah ke buat rayuan jpa-mara tu. ily, much much xoxo. :*

nanti suatu hari Nadia akan fly jugak, insyaAllah for master/PhD ;)

Nothing much to share here sebab nadia pun belum masuk lagi xD so, for the next posts nadia akan share my life here dekat UM jelah, course sains hayat, gonna make sure adik adik tahun depan rasa UM ni da-bombz meletup kebabom sampai korang bermimpi mimpi nak masuk sini, hehe. Exaggerating much.

DON'T EVER GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS. Serahkan semuanya pada Allah SWT, just do your best and let him handle the rest :)

untuk renungan kita bersama :-)

bye bye and take care semua :p

Sealed with kisses,

Nadia. xxx

Irish Coffee Cupcakes

Are you a coffee-holic? yes? well look no further!! You've stumbled upon the right place :)

A few days ago i was tempted to try out Martha Stewart's recipe for her decadent Irish Coffee Cupcakes recipe and i was "WOW-ed" for the amazing taste the cupcakes offer. Originally, the recipe has been used for years for the celebration of St. Patrick's Day, but every day is a cupcake day, so why not aite? :D

Martha has done a phenomenal job in reinventing the traditional drink as a cupcakes for grown-ups. The moist, delicate cupcakes are flavoured with espresso (i've used coffee granules as a substitute) and brown sugar, topped with billowy whipped cream frosting spiked with whiskey (i've ditch that out of course). A dusting of coffee powder/espresso/mocha powder makes a festive finish.

Head on here for the recipe :-)

http://www.marthastewart.com/314060/irish-coffee-cupcakes

So, here's the pic of my coffee cupcakes :D

Told ya it looks tempting!!

SERIOUSLY GUYS, GIVE IT A TRY. If you're a coffee lover, i swear, this air-whipped, lavish&decadent cupcakes swirled with the whipped-cream and the espresso dusting, will leave your taste bud drenched, and crave for more.

JPA-MARA Scholarship Interview 2015 (SAC)

I had a super wonderful awesome time with kumpulan 2. It was seriously the best scholarship interview i've attended (hah, like i've attended that much of an interview... anyways, moving on).

The JPA-MARA scholarship interview is different and unique, fun and exciting in the same time,

1) The interview is held in a group, thus you'll feel less nervous

2) It's like doing some kind of a school presentation for English/Bahasa class

3) TEAMMATES WERE SUPER DUPER FUN&SPORTING.

There were 2 sessions in total, 1 for BM and 1 for BI

Thus, on 26/3/15, I've went to INTEC Shah Alam for the iv. 

1st Session

Roughly, there will be 14 people in a group and the group is further subdivided into 2 more groups, consisting 7 people per group. (but on the day 2 people were absent for some unavoided reason leaving only 12 people behind.)

1) Ice breaking session (5 minutes)

we played the numbers game. nothing much to say, it was a quick activity to kinda make the candidates "wake up" because our iv session was in the afternoon (biasa la petang mengantuk kot)

2) Case-interpreting session (15 minutes)

we were given 2 papers with topics. 2 topics in total, 1 for each group.

tajuk:

"Pertanian adalah Perniagaan"

anda sebagai pemimpin pada tahun 2040 haruslah _________

->teknologi yg perlu diketengahkan

->cara untuk meningkatkan/menggalakkan industri tempatan

ugh it was one of the hardest topic so far and i was LACK OF INFORMATION.

there's this one guy in my team (under fast-track in UPM,pertanian, kencang kot, glad he was there and he knows a lot about pertanian kinda stuff! you're my life saver!!!)

the panel will keep an eye on you so BE ACTIVE and TALK, ALWAYS KEEP THAT SMILE ON YA.

3) Mahjong Paper  (15 minutes)

Write out every key points on the paper

4) Presentation (30 minutes)

Every person is given the chance to talk. Don't worry and SHINE :) keep on asking questions for that extra merit.  

(oh masa tu the 1st group, the panel tanya dasar kerajaan terhadap insdutri pertanian. SERIOUS, TAK TAHU APA. OUR BAD.)

done yay! proceed on the second session, BI Session

2nd Session

1) Case-interpreting session (15 minutes)

topic: STILL, ON AGRICULTURE.

->food safety, challenges and ways to overcome

->technology that gov. should implement

2) Mahjong Paper  (15 minutes)

Write out every key points on the paper

3) Presentation (30 minutes)

Still, the same flow as the BM Session, just keep on talking with a good body language and an EXCELLENT ENGLISH.NO ROJAK PLEASE. i know rojak is nice but you have to avoid it. 

you don't have to have any accent, just speak FLUENTLY.

DONE AND YASSSSSS IT'S TIME TO GO HOME!!

made new friends!! (best part of it)

-Arissa Munira

-Irfan Khalil

-Iman Aisha

-Fara Shuhada

-Daniel Ibrahim (BUDAK FAST TRACK UPM, KENCANGSSS)

-and etc. etc. 

MEET AISYAH ASBAR. BUDAK KENCANG BASIS 9A+ :D

Iman kena dare dengan Irfan naik kerusi ambik selfie :p

Our last group photo before going back home :)))

Sealed with kisses,

Nadia. xx

My Next Step

Okay so the result for JPA-MARA and Yayasan Khazanah were out yesterday (17/3/15) and I was SO EXCITED because my applications were a success for both scholarships! Can't thank you much enough, thank you Allah, and please, do guide me towards the end of the iv sessions ^-^
InsyaAllah, Dr. Nadia-soon-to-be.

Everything begins with a dream.

Applied for IMU (Khazanah Watan) and University of Edinburgh (Khazanah Global)

Kolej Mara Banting!! & off to Ireland I go InsyaAllah ^-^

Medical Profession; insyaAllah.

My passion for providing desperate people with healthcare is conveniently supported by both my aptitude and affinity for scientific study. Throughout high school, biology and chemistry classes have been my most rewarding and enjoyable academic pursuits. I love the sense of achievement when I finally understand how a complicated chemical reaction progresses. While my classmates are preparing to graduate from high school and “been done with school”, I feel I have only sipped from the ocean of information that I want to learn.

“What do you want to be when you grow up?” That is the magic question that is most often asked of children. For many youngsters, the answer wavers between a lawyer, a teacher, a policeman and alternates every week. For me however, the answer has always been a constant “I want to be a doctor!” Initially, my desire to become a doctor was raw and unrefined. Motivated by a naive altruism, “I wanted to make the world a better place”. Although I do not exactly remember how that goal became my number one answer, I have held fast to that ambition ever since. Beginning in primary 6, I became an avid spectator of public television programs aired in the US involving hospital themes. By the age of fifteen, I had realized my passion for medicine and the human body. It was one of the post-PMR activities and we were brought to UM for a trip. We were given the opportunity to witness a general surgery procedure. After seeing my first biopsy, I left the room feeling fascinated and informed. I was in awe of the surgeon for her expertise with the instruments but I also felt assured that with proper training, I could also complete the procedure. That also deepened my fascination for the human body and the practice of medicine. Throughout the days, I could only taste excitement and passion for medical studies.

A future in medicine will fulfill every desire and demand that I require in a career. I need to be able to work with others, think critically, study the human body, and work diligently under pressure. Because religious faith and family are important parts of my personal life, I desire a career which affords me the opportunity to professionally express myself. I am not only choosing to be a doctor, but it feels like as if the career has called me. I am drawn to medicine for its continuous challenges, new technology, and for my love of learning. I yearn to be a part of the growth in the medical field. To learn my whole life, loving the challenges, and never becoming stagnant in my knowledge and experiences. Predominantly, I will have the opportunity to make a positive impact on the quality of life for many people. To listen and understand my patients, to help them in every way my education has taught me how, and to see them as more than patient, as the most precious human life- that is the gift that a career in medicine offers. Through compassion and care for each person, I hope for a better Malaysia; a better tomorrow, a better living, a better future.

A good doctor is approachable and a calming figure in a patient’s life. When a patient is faced with the emotions and uncertainty of birth, illness, injury or death, the doctor is there to congratulate, comfort or console. A good doctor is one who attends to a patient’s feelings just as quickly as he/she makes a diagnosis and also mature in action and thoughts. He/she is able to handle difficult situations with professional ease and is able to relate patients much different from themselves. He/she is aware of the importance of his/her responsibilities and completes them accordingly. With these characteristics clearly outlined, I am even more certain of my future success in medicine. As a rule, I have always been an even-tempered individual. My emotions rarely go to extremes, and I am usually the first person to attempt to calm or soothe a friend. Being a SBP student, I am known for being a perfectionist. Spending the extra time to make sure a task is done correctly and completely is, for me, time well spent. I am also extremely approachable, with my ever-present smile. My best friend often nicknamed me as Dr. Nadia, perhaps she caught a glimpse of my developing personality and saw the beginning of a good doctor.

The final line of Shakespeare’s “Sonnet 73”- “Love that well, which thou must lose ere long”- captures how I would like to be remembered at the end of my life. I want to be remembered not as just somebody who loved their community, but as somebody who loved it well, somebody who didn’t just take a look back, somebody who put attention and effort toward following her ideals. Shakespeare deliberately includes the word “well” at the end of his sonnet to avoid a clichéd statement about love and loss, to convey that the idealized notion of love being all that matters is false. He indicates that love alone is not enough; it must be accompanied by dedication and hard work. I think these are crucial words of advice for a future doctor. They help me understand that my strong desire to help my community is not, in itself; enough to make me an effective health care provider. I will need to read article upon as research progresses. I will need to deliver bad news to patient in a calm and encouraging manner. I will need to work long hours when I’m tired. I look forward to medical school as a place which I can apply Shakespeare’s instructions to my life as a doctor and to continue to construct a legacy of one who loved well the world, the nation, the country in which I love- Malaysia.

Sealed with kisses,

Nadia Alesa. xx

Ahlam, A Blooming Red Rose

The flowers that grows to glad all Earth,
Are emblems of a better birth,
When we shall wake beyond the skies,
And see the plains of heaven arise.



(17/1/2015), i've attended a driving class to prepare for KPP01. I swear it was hella boring of a class and i admit i kinda slacked off, not that it was my fault but hey it was super stodgy&tedious. Despite that tiresome class, alhamdulillah, i'm really glad i've attended and i've met a very vibrant soul, a soul of hope and belief.

Ahlam bt Muhammed.

How would i define her?

She's as pretty as a blooming flower. A livid,ravishing,delicate flower. A flower she is, a gem that gives  glow and colour for the poetry of nature. She's like, a full blown red rose, an emblem of beauty. And each time i gazed at her perfect ash-gray coloured eyes, i was dazzled and mesmerized.

When I was in the class, I sat in the back row, yep, it was easier for me if I zonked out. Hahaha, how peculiar i was because in class (at school) i sat in the front row! Okay but driving class and academic class is different okay. It's TOTALLY MISMATED. Okay that's not the point over here. Okay back to the topic.

30 minutes after the class had started, a lady in purple jubaah caught my attention. It was not because of that jubaah, but it was because the niqaab she was wearing. She certainly had some sort of an "aura" that made me intrigued to get to know her.

Since she was kinda late, the instructor was really grumpy towards her, man, i despised him!! He even made fun of her because she was wearing the niqaab. I just COULDN'T ACCEPT IT. Dude seriously, i would have smack him up in the face for that abhoring behaviour! She replied a few words in English and i knew that she was aggrieved of his misbehaviour.

The class went on for around 2 hours and a half, and finally it was our break time for brunch. Since i had no company, I went to the cafe by my own (seriously this is how a forever alone feels like??) gosh, i felt so lifeless and forlorn, I had the urge to socialize with somebody.

When I was at the cafe, I was really famished thus I bought some sandwiches. Dude, the place was filled with men, everywhere! I was really scared because I was all alone on my own, but then, from a far, that lady in purple caught my attention again. She was alone too, I approached her as she was unwrapping her sandwiches plastic.

"Assalamualaikum"

I said the salaam and I gave her my sweetest smile.

And then I introduced myself and we started talking :) She became my friend in just a short while. She's 29 years old, and she's from a suburban area in Yaman. There was something about her voice that i found rather captivating. Her voice was subtly sensual and smooth, a velvety whisper, her voice was rather sultry and melodic.

From some strangers to a friend :) Alhamdulillah i had somebody to be with the whole day! She told me her story and I was totally enchanted and I couldn't help myself to ask for more. I like to listen to other people's story, how their life journey is. Journey is like a story book, it is livid and fresh.

She told me that she was engaged when she was 15! Wow, I was totally astonished. I mean, the man came to hand-in marriage when she was so young? Seriously the man had some guts! She was engaged for 10 years and finally she was married at 25. She's currently under a scholarship from her country (if it's in Malaysia, it is like khazanah negara scholar) my o my, she's certainly a bright girl! She told me that the scholarship was a blessing for her, since 18, she had been to universities all around the world, under full sponsors. She had learnt about so many different culture while studying in the same time! (that is certainly, my life goals, sobs) And currently, she's studying under linguistic course in UPM, living with her husband and a daughter in Serdang, pursuing master studies. I've asked her mostly everything in overseas! How's life is like in UK, US and so on. MasyaAllah sister, you've totally inspired me. She had a hard time studying back in the US because of the skeptical thinking of islamophobic, and plus she was wearing a niqaab too. I knew how harsh it was, reality, it's saddening.

Break time was over and we went for dhuhr prayers together. And that is when I get to see her face :) I'm not able to describe how beautiful she is. As far as that I can say, she's as beautiful, as lovely as a blooming, red rose. An emblem of beauty. And now that I can truly see the beauty of Islam too, we, are the protected pearls.What Islam has established for woman is that which suits her nature, gives her full security and protects her against disgraceful circumstances and uncertain channels of life.  The status of woman in Islam is unprecedentedly high and realistically suitable to her nature. Her rights and duties are equal to those of man but not necessarily or absolutely identical with them. If she is deprived of one thing in some aspect, she is fully compensated for it with more things in many other aspects.

I wish that I could spend more time with you, sister Ahlam. Thank you for everything. Thank you for being an inspiration, a motivation. 'Til then, hope that we will cross our path again.

May Allah be with you at every step you take,
May Allah guide you in each decision you make,
May Allah help you when life gets rough,
May Allah Bless you with more than enough,
May Allah protect you when you fall,
May Allah hear you when you call,
May Allah sooth your heart when you don't understand,
May you always be in Allah's loving Hand.. 

Ameen

a blooming red rose.
-A.M.

Sealed with kisses,

YTN Scholarship Interview Experiences (Yayasan Tenaga Nasional) UNiTEN

The view was amazing.

Just my experiences and opinion on this.

I was offered an interview under YTN and the iv session was held yesterday at the RHR Hotel @ UNiTEN. Alhamdulillah, i was shortlisted and not many people were lucky enough for that position, thus i didn't miss out the opportunity to try out my own luck for that. I swear it was terrific :) I had the first ever scholarship interview experiences and it's gonna be a blazing fuel to keep me going towards further achievements in my future undertakings.

We were grouped into 5, A,B,C,D and E. I got to be in the E group and there were a total of 7 peeps in my group, 2 from SMAP Labu, 2 from Sekolah Sultan Alam Shah, 1 from MRSM Taiping and ..... that one girl which i didn't remember much. She didn't say a word and she was passive, so yea... she kinda slipped of my mind (sorry wherever you are). The girl from SMAP Labu was really friendly! She was the first to introduce about herself. (Hannan I'm sorry i was in a rush and i forgot to give you my contact number :( hmmm) The first session was a cozy talk with TNB's board of director. The talk was mostly about TNB and it's future, yep mostly he focussed on the job opportunity TNB offers. What the future holds for us under the scholar, the face of the future job holders and so on. Seriously before the talk i had no idea about the courses offered and how it is interrelated with TNB corporation (albeit the fact that i did some research on that). And yeah after the talk, i was truly mind-boggled.

The next session started at around 10.20, another cozy talk with the YTN's administrator. The session was aimed to make us crystal clear of the Yayasan Tenaga Nasional's scholarship, and our path later on with our career. It makes me realize that what goes around, comes around. What i'm trying to say over here, that a company doesn't easily give out scholarship to Malaysian's student for the sake of "just for fun" or in terms of helping/just sponsoring but in a total debt, and as a compensation, we need to work for them. Well, we have to keep in mind that reality... kinda hurts. In this whole vast world we're living in, i don't think anything is ever free anymore. (exceptional for the air we're breathing in). But, nevertheless, i was totally impressed to learn that the YTN's scholar is 15% more than MARA or JPA scholar. And that, if we're qualified and if we meet the total requirement, any of us under the scholar may be able to continue studying in overseas! Gosh, that made me aroused and I was totally in an excited state. (nope this is not chemistry).

We had a break for roughly 20 minutes. We had brunch but i chose to check on my phone. Gosh seriously what should i be preparing for the writing test later and the interview itself? Thus i googled TNB and i read more and more facts on that. (at the end of the day, it turns out to be that it was kinda unnecessary.. the question wasn't really related about TNB's history, mission, vision or anything likewise/related..)

I was really nerve-wrecked.

Again, another session. It was still a talk, but this was different. Because at the end of the session the writing test will be held. Gosh i wasn't prepared for any kind of questions that may be coming out. And plus, the air conditioner was set on high, it feels like i was in the ice pole. I was freezing to death in there and my esteem almost dropped to zero. God, just end this quick. The talk was handled by aunty Norin, she currently works in the Leadership Resources (LRM). She wanted us to unleash our inner passion, and to voice out. She gave us a few examples on Malaysian heroes that foot-stepped in a career that differs from what their courses were back in the universities. Later on, she spoke about the top 5 career driving employment in Malaysia, gave the 4Q's (IQ,EQ,PQ&SQ), DDRC, secret formula on walking through the iv process, ranted on about employment values and finally, she summed up the talk with the 3 keys, talent, passion and conscient.

And that marks the end of her talk.

It's time for the writing test. *gulp*

I wasn't sure what i felt but i took a deep breath and I loosened up.

Okay and they were handing out the question papers. I took out the pen i used for my SPM papers. So, there were two pages on that paper, the front page was about us and the back page was mostly about TNB, and there were 11 questions in total. Oh why was I THAT nerve-wrecked? That was just an opinion-based paper. To voice out our own opinion. They just wanna get to know the real me, not much of a pain. Like i've stated earlier there were no history of the company, mission/vision or anything like that. Hahahaha. Silly me for worrying too much.

And so, I answered the whole Q&A paper in fully English. The first page was about our fav childhood memories, fav subject in school, how do you describe yourself, something like that. The second page was the harder one, because it was related to TNB's future. Like, what related skills do you have to improvise TNB in the future? What is your idea to help TNB outshine? What makes you qualified for the YTN scholar? haha ok i don't remember in details, I'm sorry. But the questions were something likewise. Seriously, the questions were a cinch!

So, the writing test was over and we had a break for lunch and dhuhr prayers. We went to Jupiter Cafe for our lunch. There were myriad of delicacies but i wasn't in any mood of eating. But seriously, I've tried the best fruit parfait there and i think I'm in love. xo. I wish i could snap a photo of it but hahaha ain't nobody got time for that. I went for dhuhr prayers with my SMAP Labu friends.

The Jupiter Cafe House

The interview session.


Seriously the agonizing wait made me jittered. I tried to calm down and go easy with myself but I just, couldn't. Hence, I did the hand-thingy he told me to do and Alhamdulillah it works. :) I wasn't nervous at all and finally i was able to breathe.

And therefore my name was summoned up (i mean called upon lol) and I entered the room with 100% confidence. Bismillah, with the name of Allah the most beneficent. And i said the salam to the interviewers. There were 4 interviewers in total, 2 women and 2 men. Seriously DON'T FORGET TO GIVE OUT SALAM/GREETINGS. There's like, a mark for that. It's your first impression.

Like most/any other interviews, it began with the question, 'tell us about yourself'. Seriously, just go easy with yourself, i was just imagining i had a talk with my friends, nothing much.

Done with that, they proceed on with the voice out paper. Little did i knew that the questions were a trap! Haha it wasn't a trap actually, but i wrote something else that contradicted. I mean, a business manager that likes biology? Yea i wrote biology for the "fav subject in school&why?" and I've just realized that i wrote like, 5 lines about that :(

And soon, they found out that I was just trying out my luck with the scholarship and that my passion was somewhere not in the business field.

"awak ni, nak jadi doctor, kan?"

gulp, they knew the truth.

And so, to save myself, I told them that people changes and that was my childhood dream. Hah, so much of a cliche answer.

And the interviewer said,

"we want someone who is passionate in this field and not just because of the scholarship. Business is not an easy work if you don't have a thing for it. Imagine, if you're working with TNB under business management and you don't enjoy it, a few years later you realized that this isn't right for you and you choose to chase your own dream? It is entirely possible for that to happen, just look at the examples of our Malaysian heroes we gave you earlier in the talk."

Man, I was awestrucked!

"and i guess, that's the end of our session. Do you have any question regarding this?"

And thus, i said no, i smiled to them and i said thanks for giving me the chance to be here, and i left. Haha no chance for me i guess :) but that sure was a pleasant experience!

Before I headed back home, I took a selfie outside the RHR Hotel lobby.

Thank you for a remarkable interview experience, TNB! :)

Apple Pie 

I've been dying to try out Stephanie Jaworski's recipe for apple pie. Her recipe really works divine and scrumptious! I've tried it out today and i swear it was PURE PURRRRFECTION. Those mouth-watering brownish luscious succulent delightfully lip smacking tender flaky texture, just made me, crave for more! I'm so sorry if you're on diet or something, this might've failed your intention. *evil laugh. Okay i've been exaggerating quite much. Lol

You can get the recipe here along with the video demonstration. ;)

http://www.joyofbaking.com/ApplePie.html

So, here's the pics and step-by-step photo (by my own. hiks)

To make the pie crust and apple fillings

1) Mix those listed ingredients in a food processor. Or if you don't have one, just put everything in a large bowl and just use your hand for that! it works the same anyway. Get ya hands working ya lazy bump :D (i've used Anchor unsalted butter. it works fine :)

2) When everything is mixed well and incorporated, cover with a plastic wrap and set it aside. Chill the dough for aprx, 1 hour in the fridge.The dough needs their rest too, ya know

3) Time to get those apples all ready and set up :D wishy washy bath time for those apples.

*i've used 3 kinds of apples for this! :) The Granny Smith, Red Delicious  and  Gala  apples*

4) Peel the skin of the apples and core them up.

5) Cut those apples into smaller pieces :). Mix those other ingredients to get the fillings ready.

Macam rojak buah. Hiks

6) Set them aside for roughly 1-3 hours, and when they're done, strain those apples to get their juices.
    (I've waited for around 2.5 hours in total. srsly the painful wait. ouch)

7) It's time to get those tart shell ready :D

Bought the tart shell at Aneka Bakery for RM 10.60. The size is 10"

8) Take out those chilled dough from your fridge and shape it into the tart shell.

9) So, it's time for the fillings! caramelize those strained juices in a saucepan under medium heat. Add    cornstarches to the drained apples and finally, pour those caramelized apple syrup back into the drained apples. (reunion time for the apples!! hiks)

10) Fill the tart shell with the fillings :)

11) Roll out the dough into thin layer and lay it over the apple pie. (bed time story for those apples. hehe good night little apples). Make slits& tidy up the edges using a fork. Seems edgy.

12) Baking time (another 45-55 minutes of agonizing wait)

13) Done :D (those golden-brownish texture. i just can't *-*)

14) So, you're done with that. Time to add up some calories :)
      (don't forget to chill it in a fridge overnight before cutting. I'll post the pic of the sliced pie tomorrow
       hehe. Garnish with vanilla ice cream or whipped cream)


Thank You, Stephanie Jaworski.
Regards,

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The Aftermath

The recent flood may leave a trail of structural destruction, but what about the emotional impact? The disaster leaved a trail of total devastation..... The feelings of grief, despair and frustration are all mixed up, mushed up in an emotional despair that may take years to heal. The recent flood that hit the east-coastal area brought major catastrophe and lost. The last time Pantai Timur were badly affected were in the 70's, (my mum told me that she was 7 years old during that time), and it hit again in 2014, and it brings the same prevail.

Many residents in Kelantan that were affected in the flood aftermath are now pondering their future. Well, some of them that were lucky enough not to be involved in the flooding recently may feel relieved, but what about those whom belongings and residentials were washed away, not to mention the life of their beloved ones were taken away,too? While the floodwater has now mostly receded, many of the evacuees have nothing left, they are bare-footed and mostly, just clothes on their back. Really, I can't imagine being in shoes of those who were terribly affected. Allahuakbar.

The journey to Kelantan yesterday really made me feel totally devastated. I can't really describe my feelings in words. All around as far as my eyes could witness was wrecked apart houses, ruined belongings,buildings,....mud....... those scenery made me felt bitter. Alhamdulillah, our house in Pasir Mas were only slightly affected. Our house were only submerged not quite much, but still, leaved a trail of total mess and that took us a whole day to clear up those madness.

"pandang kanan ,hancur rumah...pandang kiri, rumah tinggal tapak, kiri kanan, budak-budak berkeliaran tiada rumah...."

There's nothing left to say but to keep on praying... insyaAllah.... there will be ray of hope and sunshine, everything will be alright and those halted business will be back to life soon.

"Fainna Ma'al Usri Yusra" -al Insyirah
Surely, after the hardship comes ease.

Book Review ((Denyut Kasih Medik))

This is not the common cliche malay love novel. Seriously talking, i HATE MALAY LOVE NOVELS. This book is really, beautifully written i must say. It is about the ups and downs of an HO doctor (doctor in training), Dr. As-Solihul Muslih. My o my, he's a picture of perfection. Yet in every aspect of life, his career, his iman, his looks, his deen, just every single detail about him is more than perfect. There's a saying, ((perfect guys only exist in books)) eh? Nope. I will find one (like him), and be one (like him), insyaAllah.

This book was first published in 2010, yep,my dad bought this for me as a birthday present, a long long time ago. He knew that i wanted SO MUCH to be a doctor, ever since i was 6. Ily so much dad! This book has been an inspiration for me all this while :) an elixir for me to keep on studying without hesitation&jihad fii sabilillah.

Every chapter in this book ended with a fiqh (feqah) session. Yep, truly it is a golden opportunity to increase your knowledge in Islam! I love how the story line goes, every problem that he faces, the writer somehow intertwines it with Islamic hadith. for example, when he argues about the usage of clexane (enoxaparin, to prevent blood clotting that contains pig proteins/lards) over heparin. That argument was brought up in a scene, when his patient was involved in an accident, had to undergo TKR (total knee replacement.) Knowing that his colleagues were only following the hospital protocols without the feeling of "jihad", really upsets him. Through some ups and downs and being scolded on his first day by the MOs, he had won over the argument and yay, the S/C given to muslim's patient is restricted, only with heparin.

Through this book, i knew so much about the life of a doctor, how hectic their life is, the worst part of being a doctor, the medical terms and everything. Nope, those worst part doesn't even scares me! That is a challenge to deal with and that is the "fun thing" in life :D

Thank you, Dr. Farhan Hadi, for this inspirational book.



Love always,

Pineapple Jam Tart (Resepi Tart Nenas Paling Sedap Dalam Dunia)

So, i was bored today and i decided to bake something :D my baking skills is reallyyyyy getting rusty nowadays hahahaha.

I feel like sharing the recipe. trust me in this, this recipe works fabssss!! few years ago, a very close friend of mine gave me this pineapple jam tart recipe. She told me that this recipe is currently being used by her aunt, who owns a bakery. yep, so, i gave it a try and yes it works dabomb! and yea the ingredients are also somewhat cheap and affordable :) haha this tart really reminds me of Eid-Ul-Fitr.

so, without further ado.... *drumrolls*

Ingredients for The Tart (1 serving apprx. 40 pieces):

                  Jam Tart

• 250 g buttercup (strictly use buttercup ONLY)
• 50 g fine granulated sugar OR icing sugar
• 380 g wheat flour+1 teaspoon of custard powder
• An average-sized egg 

*for the jam, it is not necessarily to be pineapple, it is totally up to you. I've just bought it from a bakery shop nearby :)
  since my fav is pineapple tart, so i've decided to make pineapple fillings for the tart.

*before baking, brush some eggyolk onto the tart to make it shine and glossy

Methods of preparation:

1) Mix everything in a stand mixer/hand mixer, step by step. (buttercup,sugar,flour and egg)
    Beat for approximately 5 minutes 'til all the ingredients are incorporated/mixed well. so, when you're
    done with that, set the mixture aside. Let it rest for aprx. 10 minutes.

2) Shape the jam into balls (they will make work easier) like this.

3) Roll out the mixture and shape it into tarts.

**i've used this to make the rolls :) you can easily buy this from any convenience store/bakery shop

4) brush the nicely-shaped tarts with egg yolk

5) Preheat oven to 180 degree celcius, and bake the tarts for 20 minutes ± (plus minus)

6) The outcomes *ta-daaaa!*

looks yummy rite? haha you're done! enjoy your tarts :)

Goals!!

damn it idk why i'm still awake. it's 2015 and it's page 1 of 365. happy new year's eve guys!

2014 has taught me a lot, really a lot.
People that you think gonna be there forever, aren't.

The new year is a great excuse to have a fresh new start.

Time for me to give up people who I've been fighting to hold on to and cherish those who has always been here, give up those who has brought me nothing but pain and self-doubt.

If you've unfortunately landed in the 'To be given up' category, I hope you have a good year and I'm sorry but what has to be done, has to be done. May the New Year bring you all the health and wealth and whatever it is that you want.



Well, let's hope for Allah's miracle! We never know what life offers, aite? So, you have to explore the whole world and regret nothing, remember to be under the guidance of Allah SWT and live life merrily <3

Dear me, stop reminiscing on the past and be a happy new me :) i promise!

so, my 2015 goals:

• International Baccalaureate
• 9A+
• Kolej MARA Banting
• Medic
• Study hard and smart
• 45 kg hehehehehehe
• never look back, what's past is past, learn from your mistake, girl!!!
• make umi&ayah proud of me, me , me, Nadia Alesa bt. Che Nordin! :D

i have to make my parents proud of me :) i know i'm not a good daughter. so much rebellious!
wake up nadia! time to change!!

someday people gonna look up at me :) i'm gonna be on top!!

i'll surely find someone Irish, a cute Irish guy and marry him!! preferably hazel,grey or green coloured eye :3

my favourite quote;

shoot for the moon, even if you miss , you'll land among the stars.